if I can remember to comb my hair, I'm having a good day. Most of the time I forget to comb my hair, or I pick clothes that have stains on them or holes. Due to the nature of my mental illness, sometimes doing even simple things can be a big challege. Today I took my son to school, my wife usually lays out the clothes for him, this morning I could not find them so I went to the dresser and got some new ones out, or so I thought. When I picked him up today, his pants had two holes in the knees. Also there was the clothes, piled for him, on the desk in our bedroom, which apparently I either missed or overlooked.
Have I explained my mental condition and my disability good enough yet? Not imagine the same problems when trying to understand or install a new language? One that clearly says it is confusing to novices.
If it doesn't have a setup-wizard and a walk through tutorial, of course I am going to get easily confused and give up at times. Read books? I can barely read the posts on this forum, how in the heck am I supposed to read a dozen or so e-books to figure out how to work in this environment? I downloaded a few, and it was like reading Greek. I think I ran the Squeak program from the Zip file, what I thought was the setup program, but it was squeak.exe and all it did was open up two more windows, one which said a word of caution that it may be confusing for novices, and the other was like just blah-blah-blah as far as I could comprehend it. No setup wizard, and the readme.txt while 24K in size, does not format well in Notepad, and I cannot figure out right now how to put it into Wordpard or Word to get the text formatting correct. Do I just unzip these files into a directory and then run the squeak.exe program (my best guess?) or is there an installer that I missed downloading somewhere? I cannot quite figure this out, no lie! My brain that that much bumfuzzeled right now, due to the illness. A year or two ago, I may have been able to figure it out, but now, I am not so sure.
I read the Bank Account tutorial online and it scared me, I am not sure if I can handle a language like that. I'll try, maybe once I get a good day and I can focus on more than one thing at a time, I might be able to figure it out.