I mentioned Ben in my Yahoo Group, and Beep accused me of "Spitting on a grave".

I guess what I was trying to get at, is that Ben and I are alike in some ways and different in other ways. Unlike Ben, I don't hide my illness and when I get suicidal, I announce it and I get help before I actually do kill myself. This is one of the few things that has kept me alive. I've had friends who kept their problems to themselves, and pretty much put a gun in their mouths and pulled the trigger. I also have friends who didn't keep it to themselves but were able to tell someone before they did try to kill themselves, and are thus alive today.

In case you haven't noticed it, I do not want attention. That is all my "I want to be left alone" posts are about. If it really bothers you that much, CSS filter me, if you are smart enough to figure out how to do that.