I am a trouble magnet. Where I go, trouble follows. So I must be better off dead then. But I cannot die, as I no longer wish to kill myself, so it had better be of natrual causes like cancer, heart attacks, etc, or someone like a stalker stabbing or shooting me to death. But then the Chaos doesn't end with my death, it continues someplace else.
Buddha also taught us to be one with the universe. Yes I do have an Internal enemy, it is my mental illness. One I have not been able to defeat or get rid of. One that pushes other people away from me and attracts trouble like flies on stinky stuff. So I guess I am a jinx or something, but I was invited back here by Scott, who posted on my Yahoo Group. So he must have invited me back here, from my vacation from IWETHEY, for some reason? I have yet to guess what it is? Obviously not for your benefit?