You have to live. You have to either be able to do it yourself or get others to do it for you. I'm one of the few people who can't do either. I've never in my entire life been able to solve the employment problem. Growing up I never thought about it - I just assumed I would be a scientist at some university. When university life was hijacked by morons that chance was lost. So I had to find something else - I found this - and this also got hijacked by morons. (There apparently is a never-ending supply of morons. Anything I've ever loved, morons have ruined.) I never wanted to do anything other than make enough money to live and continue my work in private. Even that simple task is beyond me. I can't figure out how to live a stable existence, and by now I'm getting sick of trying and long for it to end. Or at least to get 8 hours of sleep, all at once. God I need drugs.