Well I'm sort of tired of this issue in any case. I think I identified the main issue for the time being and am done with it for now.

I spend a lot of time among poor people, and have for some time now. I find when I get home that I am sad and dispirited, as if I had sucked in the terrible gloom that surrounds these folks. The only solution is to avoid contact with everyone as it is impossible to live with their hopelessness.