until a few years ago...
My mother... always judging me... me never being good enough... her always being critical of *ANYTHING* I did... Her putting the GUILT trip on me even without her trying.

Since a few years ago (about the time I got married)
Me always breezing along, until the end and squeaking under the wire, easily... me never quite being good enough for myself... me always re-hashing my mistakes, 20/20 hindsighting myself to death... always looking to improve myself by going outside my comfort-zone...

I think the reason I had one last night, was that I asked for criticism on my first for pay work... in CSS and XHTML... coming from Pre v4 HTML... but the 12-year-old letter thingy kicked it up a notch or two... got me thinking about parts of my life I just want to NOT remember if I don't need to... Not that I haven't dealt with those things... just I don;t need to YET another time again...