I don't know if you're feeling sorry for yourself or just defensive. Either way, I understand. It's gotta hurt. Try to keep a clear head and don't do anything you'll regret. Here's the tricky part--deciding what you might regret. Take some time to figure it out. You probably shouldn't try to do it on your own. Talk to a trusted friend or counselor. There's no easy way through this, but to hang in there.