It's not the "right things" part of the comment. It's the excuses.

Stop looking for (or at) reasons not to do things. Strip the words "I can't" and "because" from your language. Report on why you can do things.

Regarding your sig: stop acknowledging your freedom and start acting on it. And if that means filing for full disability, then do it.

...trust me on this.

Book I ran across at [link|http://www.keplers.com/|Kepler's] the other day: [link|http://www.powells.com/cgi-bin/biblio?inkey=1-1576751325-0|The Power of Failure] (Charles C Manz, ISBN:1576751325). It's somewhat typical of the busines / self-help set, but I like the premise. It's that old line -- if you don't fail (at least sometimes), you're not trying hard enough. Some of the [link|http://catless.ncl.ac.uk/Risks|more interesting computer & technology reading] focuses specifically on to topic of failure. That and [link|http://online.securityfocus.com/archive/1|this] are on my daily reading list. Failure also makes for [link|http://www.k19movie.com/|fascinating stories] (and "blue light special" will never have the same meaning to me again).

The classic examples are Edison and Colonel Saunders -- each discovered thousands of things that didn't work, or thousands of people who weren't interested in a chicken recipie.

You were discussing recently programming projects to try, and it was pointed out that there were existing similar tools. Your response was to throw up your hands and say "I can't come up with any original ideas". My own, in a similar situation, is to think "Gee, someone else figured this was useful enough to develop, so I'm clearly on the right track, let's see if what they did needs any improvement".

I knew someone who blamed me for lifes problems "you make me..." was a favorite phrase. Within your own capacities, this is almost always a convenient lie. The world acts, you react. If your natural inclination is to react in a negative manner, then muster whatever strength of spirit you have to turn that response into a positive. And if it's possible to get away from the negative environment, this is also a plus.

Suicide may make sense: it stops the bad parts. The side-effect is that it stops all the good parts as well. If there are no good bits left (you're dying of cancer; the voices won't stop; the building has been hit by planes, is on fire, and will collapse around you), the decision may truly be the right one. It's a really piss-poor revenge tactic though -- we forget the ones we love quickly enough; the people who made your life miserably will care less about your death.

It's also a truly once-in-a-lifetime decision. It's an option which has been considered by many people, more than you may think. The ones still talking either decided against -- or decided not to decide. Again, that's a matter of your electing to exercise choice or not.

My own decision -- a very concious one -- many years ago after a very difficult set of events, was that death seemed like an awfully boring alternative, and I'd eventually find out whether I wanted to or not. Life is change and challenge, death is stasis. So I'm still here and enjoying (most of) the ride.