I'm actually doing ok. The only way I can describe it is I'm at peace. Over the weekend I had a moment of clarity where I knew that no matter what happens, I will be fine. And I will be.
Make sure you get a 2nd opinion before any surgery. [link|http://z.iwethey.org/forums/render/content/show?contentid=38042|Mistakes] in diagnoses aren't unheard of.