I'm still not completely okay, and I know it. I didn't have a crying jag for the first time yesterday after having at least one a day for several weeks. But today isn't over yet.

I also wonder if maybe staying busy to not dwell on it is a way of avoiding the issues? I don't want to be in denial or avoidance, if that's the case. Yesterday I finally tackled my basement ALONE since the fleas invaded and cleared up a lot of stuff. Not everything, and I did still have to wear white, but I was so focused on staying busy and my anxiety that I wasn't sad/melancholy.

I know I can't kick this in a day, I'm that realistic. So is it avoidance to try not to think about the issues that are depressing me, or does it help?

Oh and I tried the chocolate infusion technique... man that stuff has a KICK. ;)

Brenda