While there seems no Bwight Side to Look-on (Monty P.) just at this icky moment - surely it helps a tad that.. they really didn't Want to do this. ('Rejection' is such an unlovely morass, and all.)

Sounds as if your instincts are working just fine, though, and as suggested - a bit of Bushmills in your Caf\ufffd Excesso can likely help the grieving process (see? your own expertise shall surely SYA :-)

Candle lighted.
(Occasionally my candles have seemed ~to work; though only amidst the Small Gods - those with functioning humor-bones.)

vom.com with myname and an 'at' in front gets free jelloware massage.
Alas, no contacts in your metro; others just may have a few. Will check in with friend Wolf-lady anon.


Cheers! in the interim, y'Hear !?
Endorphins are indispensable, right after such nasty surprises.

moi