Re: Pagan, huh?
It inspires visions of naked people dancing around the burning wicker man.No, that's just the accounting department again.
And what do you call? You can call it by your own name. Like it or not you are on your way to becoming God (very long ways to go, but the way).
Scripture: upon Eve serving Adam the apple God said (to his wife?) "Behold he has become as we, knowing the difference between good and evil".
That was a defining step on the way to becoming God that made man more than the animals. Judaism, Christianity and much more so Islam have been trying to send responsibility for their actions back to God in return for worshiping Him.
This is futile and dehumanizing. Accept the path you are one and go forward.