Hope you get it.
You said you're worried that you wont measure up..
Measure up to what? "The work force" is comprised of people just like you, people needing to hack out a living to pay the bills and put food on the table. You run a household! You are already a CEO, CFO, and COO. You are an administrator and manager. You can do any job! Your job as a parent, as a mother, is the hardest job you'll ever encounter. You've already mastered that. Everything else is a cake walk in comparison. You'll be fine. You really will.
Seems to me that you're afraid of the unknown and this is bogging you down a little bit. It's reasonable to be apprehensive. I'm tied up in knots about starting my job tomorrow. But once I get there, and the unknown becomes known, I know I'll calm down. I suspect the same will happen for you.
Now, regarding any feelings you might have about not being there for your kids- I cant help you with that. I'm struggling terribly with that one myself. But the bottom line is I have to work. I have to let go of the guilt and have faith that it will all work out. You need to have faith that it will work out, too.
And- if you dont get offered the job, dont let this affect your self esteem. It simply means you and that particular job and company werent a match. It has nothing to do with you as a person. Keep applying.
Chin up!
