Can't you just write into your own harddrive?
You say that even if nobody reads, it benefits you. You also say that when peoplel read and disaprove you end up in stress. This crowd is not going to approve of your writing, that much should be obvious by now. Why not simply write in a private space?
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"...was poorly, lugubrious and intoxicated."
-- Patrick O'Brian, "Master and Commander"