at one point of my life a year or so ago I might have granted your request and died (IE kill myself) but I am not the same way I was before. The fact that you would say that to someone who has had sucicial thoughts in the past, proves your character flaws. I learned not to value or trust what certain people say, and you are one of them.
Despite what you are saying about me, in a different environment I have a 3.88 GPA and am being taught by certified instructors and not some semi-anonymous source on the Internet who does not have a very good thought on me, and doesn't like me anyway.