My boy..
your series of surrealistic views of the world of adults has been, what in Army lingo is termed a dry run. This kind of perverse musing is common in sullen adolescents - who would ever destroy that which they cannot comprehend. (This simulation of Vengeance on the Adults, BTW - is what soothes your fevered glands when at the full controls of your Nintendo Super-bomber with millions of the Immoral.. in your sights.)
No one can help you til you want to be helped, though you've tried every means to evade that. Meanwhile.. keep it in the pants.
