Now that you've stared into the Abyss.. and apparently didn't much care for the beady-eyes a starin back atcha - after you breathe a few more

{Whew!!s} ?

Maybe you can see that we-all share a certain thing with you (whether chemicals make our brains lie to us awfully / or tell more pleasant lies):

As you've heard often the various pro/cons of the pharm-chem cocktails AND (a few of) the alternative approaches; then tried each new random MD guess - with the results you mention..

It IS Like That!
People 'profess' to know stuff and call selves.. well you know. But few are really paying attention to *you*, often they are reading the PDR (Physicians Desk Ref) for all the "safe" = non-sue-able nostrums + the fixpacks du jour -- when some previous elixir tended to cause patients to sprout wings and stay indoors during daylight hours.

So - it isn't just *you* who must contend with all the rancid, half-assed excuse for intelligent Attention to, what possibly might be done to help your body's immune system get on with repairs. We All have to filter out lots of stuff most reminiscent of a M$ Ad about a new Innovation. Y'know?

I wish I knew some near-infallible method you could use to cut through the BS, get the Attention which you (your insur. co. == same thing) Pay For. The fact is - damn few of us are getting any better quality attention than you have! Really. Computer-grade 'helpdesk' is now the norm in medicine too. HMO is about Profit, cut-to-bone EZ pills and.. it requires as much tenacity and repeated demands to get more, as to get M$ to fix (anything).

I know a few who have so pestered, after doing as much homework as an MD ever did; then insisting upon a certain treatment: by showing the refs. But it is a wearisome and seemingly endless process: by HMO design. Probably you knew this; I'm just confirming FWIW.

This sucks - but try to remember anyway that - it isn't because *you* are stupid, or inattentive or just unLucky! <<< It is because 'the system' is as broken as you feel.

Possibly some one of your relatives (?) can help you prepare for battle, get some expen$ive tests.. and more than one opinion. And above all - some genuine full-attention to your needs. You may not be up to this alone, but you can initiate the plan.

Asking nicely is only an opening. When greeted with calculated dumbth: calm focussed Anger! is an appropriate underscore too, sometimes - as when meeting opposition to whatever it is you want to be tested about, next. (Righteous Anger also feels quite Nice = more endorphins for ya :-)


Best of Luck,

Ashton