if I can recover from it, I'll be happy. If I cannot recover from my uninstallment and may have to get on disability, I am not sure how much I could save up for my retirment. So far things don't look good, and either my former employer is saying bad things about me (that I suffer from depression, and whatever else they are saying), or there is a different factor preventing me from even getting the simplist job. It feels like everyone is against me right now, jobwise, and I cannot get a break.