He really is a sweetheart. He's not the generic a****** abusive boyfriend, he's a lost guy. He really is nice. But if he shows up in my bed in the middle of the night, I'm going to kill him by accident.

Edit: The problem here is I have early childhood programming. I know to punch the throat. I know it only takes one hit. I don't want to do it. But if he wakes me up and that situation I don't know that I can avoid it.