Most of the friends that I made in High School, College, etc have either moved out of state, lost contact with me, or killed themselves. Well maybe only a few have killed themselves, something about my generation self destructing or something. The rest have lost contact with me in some way after moving out of state or changing their local address or phone numbers. I had a lot of BBS friends, but when the Internet took over, they moved to the Internet and dropped out of the BBS world. I even used to run a local BBS named The Pentagon that had five SYSOPS and a whole ton of Online games (War simulators, Tradewars, etc).

I was in Rolla from 1986-1987 in a Fraternity, I dropped out and went back to Saint Louis when the tuition hike hit (Thank you so much Mr. Reagan), and my life savings was drying up. Plus it was very stressful for me, and I needed to quit for my mental health. I also got into the party scene a bit and drank booze and smoked cigars. I only had myself to blame for messing up, but I made a lot of friends there. Just haven't seen them since. I did pay off my student loan. I went back to St. Louis and went to a community college to get my Associate degree in Data processing with the programming option. Most of the people I worked with moved on, but a few of them still work there at the college from when I worked at that college and also helped them run their BBS as a Co-Sysop. I voice validated users, backed up the BBS (This was back when we used 360K floppies and the DOS backup program).

It seems that when someone learns about my depression, they kind of stay away from me. I try to keep it a secret, but eventually people find out or figure it out.