It's exhausting. Doc is not admitting her. There is really no point. She wants to die at home on her own terms. She is going to go down kicking and screaming, trying to control things until the bitter end. Nobody is going to tell her what to do! She is just like me and she drives me nuts. I came back from her house. Her skin is gray, her lips and nails are blue, she is coughing up what is left of her lungs, and she tells me she is fine. Just fine and dandy.

Denial. It aint just a river in Egypt.

You know, I'm good in the active crisis, but this long drawn out business.. I'm not so good at.