
Bwah?
My training and my time in Nippon had nothing to do with each other. ^_^ I do look at other people, and I do see that mostly we are still 99% animal and 1% aware. I realize that I am probably not a whole lot better than the average.
You ride the waves, I stand against them. That IS who I am; and yes, it is hard. For me, without the challenge I would have no reason to live.
David Gerrold has this great part in one of his books about how to really screw up a fish: you grab the fish by the tail, haul it out of the water, and hold it just above the surface until it realizes it's been swimming in water all along. Whatever you do, though, don't put that fish back in a tank with fish that haven't had the same experience - all the other fish will ostracize it. "Oh, poor Frank, he's never been the same since that day - always babbling on about this 'water' thing he says we're all in."
So we have a choice, pretend nothing changed, or act with our new understanding. I choose to act.
When somebody asks you to trade your freedom for security, it isn't your security they're talking about.