a friend of mine killed himself in 1999 and I and others are still not over it yet. A few of my friends that knew him are over it, but the rest of us are not. We may never know the true reasons why they did it, but what we can do is remember them and live as best we can. I am sorry to see Ben K die, and he will be missed. I am glad that I got help for my suicidal thoughts before they got out of control. Mostly job related stress and depression, which now that I am out of work, I am almost rid of 99% of the stress and depression.