Post #136,226
1/16/04 8:04:39 PM
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I hope things have settled down. Job stress is pretty bad.
You're they type of teacher that they should do their best to keep happy. I hope they realize that.
Don't make the jump unless you have something lined up, if you can. Bird in the hand and all that....
Best of luck!
Cheers, Scott.
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Post #136,227
1/16/04 8:06:52 PM
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No-job stress is much worse
-drl
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Post #136,250
1/16/04 11:05:25 PM
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I'm still upset
but for now things are all right.
However, I really need to start planning an exit strategy or at least a shift to part time, if only so I can put in more time on my grad work.
In addition, I think I should take up the guitar again....
Tom Sinclair
The question seldom addressed is *where* Medusa had snakes. Underarm hair is an even more embarassing problem when it keeps biting the top of the deodorant bottle. -- (Terry Pratchett, Soul Music)
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Post #136,255
1/17/04 12:48:48 AM
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there ya go!
In addition, I think I should take up the guitar again.... Good plan. Everyone needs an escape valve. I just put my [link|http://www.larrivee.com/content/products/guitars/specs/L-03/images/front_reg.jpg|acoustic] away for the evening. Nothing relaxes me more than spending a couple hours letting my mind escape in music :)
----- Steve
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Post #136,264
1/17/04 4:50:06 AM
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Re: there ya go!
Funny, I tend to avoid my piano when I'm in a state. In fact I avoid all music.
-drl
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Post #136,278
1/17/04 10:04:33 AM
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I find playing guitar quite meditative
Tom Sinclair
The question seldom addressed is *where* Medusa had snakes. Underarm hair is an even more embarassing problem when it keeps biting the top of the deodorant bottle. -- (Terry Pratchett, Soul Music)
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Post #136,290
1/17/04 12:12:07 PM
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I feel the same way
About my piano!
When I'm in a really angry mood, I love to go in and play things like Chopin's Pollanaise, and Fantasia! I learned this procedure from my mom who did it often when I was a child! Sometimes I also play Funeral For A Friend by Elton John, as well.
When I'm feeling depressed or sad I tend to gravitate towards playing Three Preludes by Chopin, preferably my favorite, #4 from Opus No. 28. That piece just gives me the chills and moves me to tears sometimes. I also like to play Ragtime's (the movie's) One More Hour waltz, the haunting theme from Titanic, or Bread's "If."
And when I want to be uplifted the most, I play either the Theme From Ice Castles, "It's My Turn" or "Out Here On My Own" or "The Greatest Love Of All"
Music soothes the soul, heals the heart and uplifts your life.
Nightowl >8#
"It is understanding that gives us an ability to have peace. When we understand the other fellow's viewpoint, and he understands ours, then we can sit down and work out our differences." Harry S. Truman
"Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude." Timothy Bentley
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Post #136,316
1/17/04 6:59:22 PM
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Cooking is the same
Just focus on chopping, mixing and putting things together and let everything else just go away for a while.
Tom Sinclair
The question seldom addressed is *where* Medusa had snakes. Underarm hair is an even more embarassing problem when it keeps biting the top of the deodorant bottle. -- (Terry Pratchett, Soul Music)
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Post #136,317
1/17/04 7:03:55 PM
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Re: Cooking is the same
I can't do anything requiring order when I'm upset. I envy you. I tend to just daydream or brainstorm - I don't dwell on what upset me, I just can't do "ordered" things when distracted. Cooking? I'd burn the house down.
-drl
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Post #136,263
1/17/04 4:48:39 AM
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It will not improve
I know exactly what you are feeling, and I also know that it will not get better. You've banged off a metaphysical wall that separates you from them. Every approach to this wall will generate the same reaction in you. Since you cannot adopt their wrong ideas and they will not accept your right ones, you will exist in a permanent state of tension until you sever your ties with them.
Sorry but that's how it is.
-drl
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Post #136,276
1/17/04 9:36:33 AM
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Not true
He's fighting against seagull managers. He can outlast them, or take them out. He CAN win.
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Post #136,277
1/17/04 9:50:17 AM
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Re: Not true
I would agree if it were the cut and thrust of corporate life (although victory would be Pyrrhic) but this is academe. Faggetaboutit. Ivory towers cannot be stormed.
-drl
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Post #136,279
1/17/04 10:08:45 AM
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Have to agree with DeSitter on this one
I certainly don't see it getting better.
In fact, one of the reasons I'm trying to get my Ph.D is so I have a better shot at working somewhere else. I want to stay in higher education but I don't see myself staying at my current employer.
Tom Sinclair
The question seldom addressed is *where* Medusa had snakes. Underarm hair is an even more embarassing problem when it keeps biting the top of the deodorant bottle. -- (Terry Pratchett, Soul Music)
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Post #136,281
1/17/04 10:35:09 AM
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Re: Have to agree with DeSitter on this one
It's a severe test of patience to adjust to people who you know are wrong.
Example: Someone who participates in the sci.physics.research forum, a very vocal supporter of string theory at Harvard, decided to send me unsolicited flame mail over my new gravitational work. It was clear that he 1) did not actually read my paper 2) did not understand the geometric basis of the work 3) did not really understand gravity even as it stands. Nevertheless he felt quite justified in calling me a "crackpot" in public (the group came to my defense). My work is still not on the arxiv.org preprint server, even though it is appearing this month in a well-known journal with a stellar editorial cast - I suppose it is just beyond the comprehension of the so-called site editor that a non-affiliated person could do original work. More amazing is that all manner of pointless trivia are allowed to accumulate in the archive, like mental dust bunnies under the furniture of reality. These things are frustrating in the extreme, but there is nothing to be done about it other than draw a deep breath and bide one's time. Academics have so much ego invested in maintaining their personal status quo ante that getting any new ideas past them is almost necessarily a fortunate accident.
-drl
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Post #136,283
1/17/04 10:58:40 AM
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Politics
It's everywhere.
You either play or you lose, you can't ignore it.
The PHD will not save you.
People without technical awareness making technical decisions, screwing up your life. Forever.
Who's the next step up the ladder? What faculty gatherings are there that you have been avoiding?
Create an elevator pitch. Get every point you require to open up a conversation in under 30 seconds. You have to state a problem HE cares about, and offer enough possibility for a solution that he wants to hear more.
Practice. Practice. and Practice some more.
Then for each possible question, map out a response. A simple, low tech, in words that tickle his preferences response.
What is his educational background? Where did he work before? What successes did he have that you can refer to in awe and admiration?
Is this the Lucent exec? Research. What projects did he work on? In the case of his losses, find out enough to know what NOT to talk about unless he brings them up later. Wins? Go for it. People love to talk about their wins. And maybe it'll affect your viewpoint and you will learn a bit more.
It might be months before you have your chance. Use them well. Practice. Research. Be prepared.
Your goal is not to get an answer that satisfies your issue. Your goal is to impress upon him that you have a valuable viewpoint. An appreciation for his problems. A respect of his opinions.
And then, and ONLY then, you can lay the groundwork for change in a direction that you prefer. That you are SURE is a good thing. That you can discuss in his terms. For all you know, there is a position open that he is trying to fill, that you fit in, that you can have a larger ability for direction.
People at our level have valuable knowledge which is almost never tapped unless we do this type of networking. Which means the people without the knowledge get in dangerous positions and end up harming us and the company/institutions we work for. You need a seat at the table before you are heard. These steps are required to get there.
----------------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------------------------- The following is a tech writeup of my current "under the radar" implementation of a few Linux boxes. It was written while you were writing the above depressing post. It may be helpful on the tech level, but I feel you really need the above political viewpoint before you can apply the tech portion. ----------------------------------------------------------- -----------------------------------------------------------
I'ved just moved into my MIS department. It is split between IBM mainframe, Coldfusion, and SQL/Server / desktop programming.
I was told to produce a filter program that must be executable on the mainframe, processes a bunch of data, moves a bunch of files around to multiple systems, mainframe, FTP server, etc.
This program is the definition of mission critical. Without it in operation, we would be unable to put mail in the mailstream.
I was told it would be good (wink, wink, nudge, nudge) if the program ran either on the mainframe or NT to limit the number of system dependencies. My response is that I could easily do it on Linux, but painfully / slowly on the mainframe and in a way I would not be able to support on NT. If they want, I could code it for NT, but I'm not willing to stake my job on it's continuing operation.
Told to do it on Linux.
It has been in operation for about a month now. No burps, everyone happy. Since I had stolen resources to whip it up, ie: no development investment, and now it is proven, we are about to buy 2 identical Linux servers to dedicate to it. Not that it needs the CPU, just we want that level of isolation in the event of failure.
Our West coast operation has the same issue, and needs to run the same code with some modifications for their environment. They are a 100% NT based. They were purchased by us a few years back, but the operations was never integrated with our MF based system for the printing. But they have the same business problem.
Their internal IT is fiercely independant. Why shouldn't they be? They make money so should be left alone.
We can't move their data back and forth to run it "here", would swamp our comm lines with them. They asked to see my code and documents concerning the development. No problem, I sent it to them. About 1,200 line of code that handles the core business problem and 900 lines of glue code that moves files around, send emails, etc. And I'd say that 1,200 lines is about 30% comments.
The only programmers they have on their side are VB and Foxpro coders. They have a good reputation. And I heard nothing back.
So we offered to install a couple of Linux "black boxes" on their site. I would modify the code for their particular environment, our IT department would support the hardware / OS, and the application would be supported by MIS.
This will be the 1st Linux installed on that site, and is solves a major business problem. This is the type of install that has a major impact on the people following the $$ and there are no OS religious issues involved. It just works.
I think that should be the Linux battle cry. It just works. [link|http://c2.com/cgi/wiki?ItJustWorks|http://c2.com/cgi/wiki?ItJustWorks]
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Post #136,288
1/17/04 12:09:29 PM
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Thanks. Good advice, as always.
Tom Sinclair
The question seldom addressed is *where* Medusa had snakes. Underarm hair is an even more embarassing problem when it keeps biting the top of the deodorant bottle. -- (Terry Pratchett, Soul Music)
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Post #136,351
1/17/04 11:13:54 PM
8/21/07 6:08:36 AM
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Guitar
I've begun unarchiving my music life.
About a week ago I went through a big box of old cassette tapes of songs, snippets, old band demos, etc. I've been digitizing them before the tapes degrade much further. Also unpacked my piano (Alesis QS8), my studio monitors, and restrung my trusty old Washburn Hawk.
I'm inspired by the release of GarageBand. I expect to resume writing and recording soon. Stay tuned for announcements on download location.
Gotta do something fulfilling - work isn't it.
Hey, maybe us Denverites ought to get together and jam sometime!
ps - how to know you are OLD - when the guitar you bought as a teenager is reissued as a "vintage classic reissue".
"I believe that many of the systems we build today in Java would be better built in Smalltalk and Gemstone."
-- Martin Fowler, JAOO 2003
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Post #136,358
1/18/04 1:01:46 AM
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My soon to be 15yold
has been learning electric guitar, trombone, basoon. Lately he is hitting the the AC/DC live CD from Donington (circa razors edge tour) note for note, I will be a roadie again before I die.
Miss, ya wanna meat the star I hafta inspect ya :-) solly about that his wife wont let him meet females, I'm the best yer gonna do.
"Dad, will you get that groupie off yer schlongue(long schlong) long enough to pack the equipment!" no probs, grunt thanx, bill
same old crap, con artists ripping off fools. Ah, hell, Catholic Church it start off that way. They All do. Jesus probably had three walnut shells one pea, then he's dead and can't be questioned, Gabriel Dupre
questions, help? [link|mailto:pappas@catholic.org|email pappas at catholic.org]
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Post #136,360
1/18/04 1:10:44 AM
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Music
I've been revisiting my childhood music life I guess. I've been collecting and listening to old old musicals like "Camelot" and "Sound of Music" and less old musicals like "West Side Story." I just ordered two more tonight with my belated Christmas money from my sister, "The King And I" and "Brigadoon."
Somehow listening to all those old musicals that I used to stay up and watch with my mom has been really comforting. :) Kinda like a reminisce, I guess.
Nightowl >8#
"It is understanding that gives us an ability to have peace. When we understand the other fellow's viewpoint, and he understands ours, then we can sit down and work out our differences." Harry S. Truman
"Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude." Timothy Bentley
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Post #136,364
1/18/04 8:49:57 AM
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Re: Guitar
Odd, I'm working on a string quartet and a piano sonata, or maybe a piano quartet since they seem to share a lot of thematic material. Same reason, gotta do something creative.
What computer tools do you use? I play fragments and capture the output to my music editor over a serial MIDI connection, and edit from there.
-drl
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Post #136,425
1/18/04 6:42:59 PM
8/21/07 6:10:49 AM
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Gear
"What computer tools do you use?"
My first sequencer was built into my Ensoniq ESQ-1. 8-tracks and basic 8-button menu driven interface. I could put stuff together really fast with that. Still have it but I want more control so I purchased Vision, then upgraded to Studio Vision (added digital recording). Most of my stuff is in Vision file format and Opcode was purchased and killed by Gibson. I'm going to start out with GarageBand, but I'm considering the competitive 1/2 price upgrade to MOTU Performer. Its pretty cool of them to take a competitive upgrade from a dead product.
I also need a new midi interface - old one was based on serial ports and there are no serial ports anymore. I'm looking at the 828mkII. I have 6 keyboards, 2 drum boxes, a rack D-50, guitar, and vocal mike. The 828 will let me get away with not buying a dedicated mixing board for all that stuff. I'm going to start with the 828 and GarageBand and see how it goes - I suspect I'll need to add additional midi interface more or less right away and we'll see if I can be productive with GB.
"I believe that many of the systems we build today in Java would be better built in Smalltalk and Gemstone."
-- Martin Fowler, JAOO 2003
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Post #136,495
1/19/04 1:08:00 PM
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OK, I'll bite...
what is an 828mkII (I assume that's 828-mark-2 in english)? Is it an A/D, or multichannel MIDI in-out-thru (if its the latter, what do you intend to do with the guitar and mike?)?
Enquiring minds want to know.
Also, any ideas on a decent VST synth?
jb4 shrub\ufffdbish (Am., from shrub + rubbish, after the derisive name for America's 43 president; 2003) n. 1. a form of nonsensical political doubletalk wherein the speaker attempts to defend the indefensible by lying, obfuscation, or otherwise misstating that facts; GIBBERISH. 2. any of a collection of utterances from America's putative 43rd president. cf. BULLSHIT
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Post #136,535
1/19/04 7:22:27 PM
8/21/07 6:13:16 AM
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Chew on this
MOTU = Mark of the Unicorn
[link|http://motu.com/english/motuaudio/828/body.html|http://motu.com/engl...dio/828/body.html]
Gadget has 8 line ins, 8 outs, 4 sends, 2 mic/guitar ins with available phantom power, midi in/out, etc. Basically, this should handle my audio stuff including guitar and vocal mic, plus basic midi. I suspect I'll need another midi interface for more channels soon - but for writing I expect to record the midi, clean up my sloppy playing, and then record the synth to audio, then mute the midi track....
"I believe that many of the systems we build today in Java would be better built in Smalltalk and Gemstone."
-- Martin Fowler, JAOO 2003
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Post #136,905
1/21/04 2:21:50 PM
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Sweet!
Nice box! (and the 828 is OK, too!) Only complaint is its Mac-specificity for the attached SW. Seems like it should handle anything.
I wonder if its FireWire implementation is compatible with the Audigy flavor?
jb4 shrub\ufffdbish (Am., from shrub + rubbish, after the derisive name for America's 43 president; 2003) n. 1. a form of nonsensical political doubletalk wherein the speaker attempts to defend the indefensible by lying, obfuscation, or otherwise misstating that facts; GIBBERISH. 2. any of a collection of utterances from America's putative 43rd president. cf. BULLSHIT
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Post #137,031
1/21/04 11:58:06 PM
8/21/07 6:29:13 AM
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Supports both Mac and Windows
Don't know about the firewire issues. I picked one up - haven't had time to set it up this week. :-/
"I believe that many of the systems we build today in Java would be better built in Smalltalk and Gemstone."
-- Martin Fowler, JAOO 2003
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Post #136,368
1/18/04 9:30:06 AM
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Re: Guitar
I got GarageBand yesterday (Edu. price US$29) and have been playing with it.
It's got me inspired as well. It's very easy to use and in fact encourages experimentation.
I've got it on my desktop G4 and am now clearing out some disk space on my TiBook so I can have a portable music studio.
Tom Sinclair
And, while it was regarded as pretty good evidence of criminality to be living in a slum, for some reason owning a whole street of them merely got you invited to the very best social occasions. -- (Terry Pratchett, Feet of Clay)
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Post #136,369
1/18/04 9:33:17 AM
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Re: Guitar
Duh, I thought GarageBand was am album. <- dolt
-drl
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Post #136,496
1/19/04 1:13:18 PM
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Actually
I think neil Young released an album with that name
(on further review: "The Third Greatest Garage Band in the World"
jb4 shrub\ufffdbish (Am., from shrub + rubbish, after the derisive name for America's 43 president; 2003) n. 1. a form of nonsensical political doubletalk wherein the speaker attempts to defend the indefensible by lying, obfuscation, or otherwise misstating that facts; GIBBERISH. 2. any of a collection of utterances from America's putative 43rd president. cf. BULLSHIT
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