Norm that is nuts!
No company is going to risk its operation by flooding you with tasks just to fire you for not doing them - can't you see that's just crazy? They just fire your ass and that is that! Criminy, they're lawyers! They aren't going to waste a second indulging in some stupid game to get you fired! THE DAMN GARBAGE COMPANY wouldn't do that! "They got me fired by making me pick up twice as much garbage as the other guys." Would you believe that if someone told you that?
As for not being able to accomplish tasks - no wonder! Your every thought is filled with YOU YOU YOU, you have no brainspace left to think about anything that is not immediately connected to YOU YOU YOU. And your head is filled with powerful psychoactive drugs that make resistance to self-defeating, self-obsessive thought impossible! The cognitive parts of your nervous system that are still working are constantly battling the destructive effects of the drugs. It must be exhausting! The thing is, that is NOT YOU - it is some imaginary thing you invented to avoid dealing with the real world because it is easier that way. You can't be YOU until you forget about THAT PERSON YOU INVENTED. I don't give a flying frick what some stupid therapist says - I've told you over and over those people will fsck with your mind until you are a vegetable - have you improved one bit? NO! You are right back where you started.
If you WANT to get better why don't to try taking my advice for once? If I didn't give a shit I'd just ignore you. You have to WORK AT IT.