Staying (somewhat) flexible can shield from that Certainty!-or-bust bugaboo, I wot.
We homo-saps are in a guaranteed precarious condition 'here'--insufficient imagination to extrapolate from piddling 'knowledge' aggregated
..to come within light-years of what May be "going on."

Our vanity/hubris/etc. seems to be vastly larger than whatever wisdom happens to/in a One.
'Enlightenment' is forever a DIY task--there is ~universal agreement on that and on its corollary: nobody else can bestow such a 'state'. [Pity!]

Luck in the sorting-out. (Meanwhile, enjoy the Mystery, eh?)