You write:
"Since I joined here, I have always felt like a part of IWT, but also at times have felt like I'm outside the inner circle, or not really accepted overall." Now that you've finally bottomed out (like the entire "inner circle") then you've made it to where we are. You're now in the inner circle. Congratulations! Just don't try to actually keep any of the resolutions. If you start climbing your way back up, you'll only alienate this group. We like life on the bottom.